What should I do?

I just dont get it. I dont know what you want.

In this world, I don't have anything else to ask for but a real love from someone that I really love. "Awak, kan saya dah beritahu awak bahawa awak menduduki tempat ketiga dalam orang yang paling saya sayang". 
1. God
2. Family
3. Awak
 It means that I really love you. I always try to be the best for you, but until now I just don't know what else should I do? How should I be? Coz it seems that I am not good enough for you. I am nothing. I am nobody.
Right now, I am sitting here, doing nothing because I forgot who I used to be. And who am I in you dearly... WIll I safe today? If yes, I hope you'll love me because I know that maybe next time I wont be safe, and by that time I am not sure what will you say when you hear the news that I am here (in this world) no more...
But, don't worry. I've told you. I will love you forever and that wont change because once that I said that I love you, forever will I do because I never have someone like you.


I love you.


With Love,


Gior D' Ray