Hello everyone! Good afternoon. Guess how can I log into my blog this time? Well, I was doing something this morning and after I think about it over and over again, I have decided to go to the beloved campus using the campus bus. Seriously I felt so strange when I stepped into the bus. The last time that I go by that bus is during my teaching practice and that was when I still live in the residential college of Indah Permai. When I saw the bus, I was hesitate at first but then when I saw a guy walking towards the bus then my instinct tells me to follow him and I do. Well, being a uni student who travel by the uni bus for about four year has given me the experience of waiting and all. If before 'waiting' used to irritates me, now I kind of miss those feeling. So, just now I really do not mind that I have to wait for quite sometime while the bus driver was waiting for the bus to be fully occupied by the students. Want to know the best part? The feeling of being so secure and so safe is something that you/I would never get anywhere else but in the campus, by being the uni student ourselves. Seriously, now that I am staying in the teacher's flat at the same school where I used to have my teaching practice, I always felt like I am so insecure and everything has to be on my own. I have to figure out how to live my own life, the food, the transport, even the life management. Seriousl? And even now that I am sitting here using the uni wifi to surf the internet, I am so grateful. It is slow but still, I am so GRATEFUL.
Well, I am not here to enjoy the facility as I wish and as I always did when I was still an undergraduate here. The motives for today is to download as much journal as I could to help out this one friend of mine with his assignment. To be honest, saying 'yes' at the very first place was a regret for me and up till now I regret the decision. It is no longer a question of how much money is paid for how many works done but it is a question of how can I make it up so that I would not have this guilt of taking the money and not doing the job worth the money (though if you want to ask me whether the money worth the work, I will definitely say NO) why? Simple. It is because I need to get the material on my own, I need to do the translating part, and above all I need to think and brainstorm on how to arrange the ideas. Each time I read the journals and try to type them in, I felt a heavy load in my brain which I am not so sure whether I can endure it anymore.
Oh yeah. My current status is UNEMPLOYED. People often called it as freelance but for me, it is just doing something in the name of 'helping out'. For now, I have two more so called freelance job that I am working on with. The first one is yeah that one illustrated in the previous paragraph but trust me, if it is a real job I really want to resign the job. The second freelance job that I am working on with now is teaching/coaching the kindergarten students a dance for their performance during their convocation. Well, it was supposed to be held on this coming 16th November 2014 but yesterday I was informed that the date is postponed to 23rd of November which is the same day of my convocation. OMG! It means that I would not have the chance to watch the result of my coaching live. Asking about the pressure? Let me be clear. I was kind of scolding the kids yesterday because I could not stand it that they really like to say or do something against what I said. So, I show them some harsh part of me and there you do, SILENCE! Gosh. Do I suits this job? If you want to ask me, there are time that I felt like giving up and walk away but this is the thing about me, when it comes to promises and responsiblity, I would not be happy about it until I get the job done. Stress! I am hungry now.., Should I go to the cafe? AWKWARD!... How to go back later? Independent or trouble my housemate again? huhuhu... Anyway. I got to go. Bye.
With Love,
Adam Geordrey
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