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Me with my travelling cap making my way to Fio's house

Me without my cap

Hello people. It's me again. I consider this as my first blog post updated from my rent house here in Sebauh, Bintulu Sarawak. I'll get to that part later.

I took this photo with my two niece early in the morning before I made my move to Fio's house at 6.30 in the morning.

This would be one of the thing that I shall miss most of the time now that I am back at my workplace.

So, as we all are aware of, the Covid-19 Pandemic has affected us in every possible way and school is one of the party affected by it. We had our MCO enforced at the end of our last school break back in March 2020 and it has taken a long period till June. Teachers have been summoned by the Ministry of Education to be back to our schools by 9th of June 2020. So, we did. Me and my two other colleagues Fio and Afi made our way back to Sebauh, Bintulu on Sunday 7th June 2020. My two little brother sent me to Fio's house at 6.30 in the morning and we departed from Samarahan at around 8.00 in the morning. I had only about an hour sleep the night before so I felt drowsy the whole time. Not getting any dinner the night before and no breakfast that morning itself made things even worse. I wish I could stay awake the whole time we were in the car since I was not the one driving and to show courtesy of giving me a ride but I was feeling under the weather.

Upon reaching Sibu.

Getting our food at Marrybrown Sibu

Sibu mall

My food. Btw, I love social distancing. :)

And our dinner as we reached Bintulu town. I had this Bakso at Soto Nur, J5 Bintulu.

To be honest, the idea of going back to the workplace and get back to work isn't the best thing I had in mind but that's what we called as duty calls. And this job that we are given are not just a job but a trust and responsibility that we had to carry with respect. So, trying to not thinking bout the bad parts, I decided to look at the bright side of it.

The first steps in changing the whole vibes into a positive one is by planning on what is there to do and how things should work. So, I decided to come with a list of things to do to keep my sanity still. Not that I am insane, LOL.

So yeah, that is what I will be trying to keep up with for the next few days or weeks before things could finally feel normal.

It feels good to be back to this rent house where I get to have more space for myself but of course there are price to pay for. One of the biggest difference that I will surely miss is the time and chance for me to spend with my family and siblings. This MCO has given me such a great opportunity to be at home for almost three months which was the longest period I ever had eversince I started high school, went to uni and a working adult now. There was of course time when we will be caught up in arguments and stuff but that's okay because whatever it is, we are one big family. That's the true meaning of being a family.

Our front porch at our rent house

And the messy living room. PS: Those are all my clutters. hahaha

Anyways, going back to this whole get back to work part, the ministry had made an official announcement that the school will be back in business starting from 24th June 2020 for the Form 5 and the Form 6 students. So, our school is included too for the form 5 students. It means that we have about two weeks left before we get back to work. There will be a lot of things to do before the school will be finally ready. So, as for now we teachers shall be waiting for the next order from our superior. 

Being here at this rent house is a totally different thing but I am trying to get my feet on the ground and improve things for something better. I am so used to writing blogs and my novel back in our parents house in Kuching. I am so used to the routine of reading my books with the surrounding at home. So, everything is considered new that I shall learn to find the space and time here for my books reading and novel writing.

I guess that is all for now. Till next time. Adios.

With Love,

Adam Geordrey

(Author to be)

Another Scholarship Application Rejected

Hello and good morning.

As the title of this post speaks for itself, yes, I have checked my application for the scholarship and it was rejected. For this particular scholarship, it was my first time applying since the requirement was you need to have at least three years of working experience. Unfortunately, I am not one of those who have what it takes to be selected for the interviews as a first time applicants. 

This was shown upon checking for the result. :(

For the record, so far I have applied three different scholarships and this one is the third.

I applied for Commonwealth Scholarship to the UK in 2018 and I didn't get through. I made a post on this too last time. For the second trial I went for the Chevening Scholarship to the UK application but it was also declined. I applied for this one in November 2019 and got the rejection email in February this year (2020). So, for the third one, I applied for Hadiah Latihan Persekutuan (Cuti Belajar Bergaji Penuh Dengan Biasiswa) and it was also declined. So, now, I had officially applied for three scholarships and they are all declined.

It was indeed a sad thing to think of but at the same time I know that if it were to be an easy one then everyone shall get through for the scholarships right? Well, as much as we hate it but guess what? There is no such thing as free thing in this world. By hook or by crook, we would have to work really hard for it and it means that different people have it in different ways. So, at the end of the days all we have left to choose is whether we are going to find an excuse to be blamed on our failure or we could also take it as another obstacles in making our dream comes true.

I know myself well enough that things are not always going to be easy. Not that I had always had things easily coz obviously it never is but that won't stop me from keep on trying. As long as I live and as long as I have the strength to, I shall keep on trying. If God has his plans for me then I shall figured out what it is/was. So, giving up and stop trying surely not the answer to it though we all know how short life is that we may or may not be able to get what we want by the time we had to leave this world behind.

This should not be a post of expressing rage or disappointment rather it should be something to keep burning that oil of determination and kindle the spirit of hope.

Well, do drop me a message if you have any ideas or information on what other scholarships or opportunity that I could get to pursue my masters. For a little details on my education background, I hold a Bachelor of Education in TESL earned from University Malaysia Sabah and I am planning to pursue my masters in either TESOL, TESL or Applied Linguistics. Do contact me if you have any suggestions or ideas on how can I get my masters funded. Thank you very much.

Well, I guess this is it. So the search shall continues. In the meantime, I will be focusing on writing my debut novel, get it done and make it published! That's my 2020 biggest goal so far (apart from getting the scholarship that is now officially declined).

I am reachable via Instagram (mewziqbeads) or Facebook (Adamfi Dafi).

Till next time. Bye.

With Love,

Adam Jodrie

(Author to be / Believer)

Writing A Book in a Diary Form

Hello people, as I logged into this blog of mine, I realised that the entry that I posted before this one was not even read by anyone yet which means that this one may as well be unread but still, I chose to write up and get it posted.

So, as you all know I am currently working on my very first debut novel which is about 80% completed but still under the first draft. I know that I should put more time and effort in writing it up and finish the novel as soon as possible instead of working on the next one. However, knowing myself better I know that I should get the second project started while I am still having that drive in me. 

Just so you know, the second project I am working with is written in a diary form. Down below is the short paragraph I wrote on the first page before I even get the writing started. I wanted it to be clear that this is how it shall turn out to be, a diary.

I decided to write a story which shall be written in the form of a diary. I choose to make the story line remain a secret and let the whole writing journey itself reveal the story of the main character and what his diary was all about. Date and time used may be aligned to the present time but there may be some changes or flashback to be written in the future. So, bear with me.

I was so enthusiastic about it that I even come out with my own cover design along with how I shall call this book. For the time being I have no intention of changing the title of the book. So, that is how I should call it once it is ready to be published. It is so irony that I haven't even decided on the title for my debut novel and yet I have decided for the one that I myself are not sure when it shall be completed or ready to be published. However, since I want to choose the right title for my debut novel, then so be it. I am listing every possible title that later on will be chosen as how my debut novel should be called.

On the other side, since I have designed the cover for the new one I am working on, I am going to upload it here and share it with you guys. Let see how do you think of the cover. As for the cover, I am not sure too whether it shall be used as the real cover for once the book is done but for now I am going with the one I had designed. I loved it. Hopefully you do too.

This is the cover for my new book.

There you go. The cover that I designed myself. What do you think? The title of the book is Belial Gadreel. And it is a diary written from his point of view.

As you all know, diary or journal is something people keep to write down all they wanted which mostly are secrets in their own heads.We hold so many things underneath our mind and those are things called secrets. Since those information are highly secretive, it gets hard for us to keep it to ourselves but at the same time, spilling it out to everyone or even anyone would be the least favorable thing we would want to do. That is why, we ended up keeping a diary or a journal so we could have 'someone' who would listen to all that we had wanted to say not knowing writing it down is the first step to revealing the secrets and risking it to be known by those whom we may not want to.

That one paragraph is the extract of how the writing of the diary initiated by this one and only guy called Belial Gadreel.

Well, I hope you are excited about the book as much as I am. For this one, there is no pressure in getting it done as soon like how I treated my debut novel but it would be really nice if I could finish it within this year too, along with my debut novel.

So, I guess that should be it for this post. Thank you for dropping by and read stuff on this humble and infamous blog of mine.

It's 4:37 am right now and here I am wide awake while everyone has gone to bed having their sweet dreams under their peaceful night sleep.

Till then, bye.

With Love,
Adam Jodrie
(Author to be)