I am Happy even though I am tired

Life is something that should not be wasted

Yeay! Yeay! I am so happy that at last my group's proposal is accepted by Mr. Florence. Thanks a lot to him. Thanks for the guide and knowledge. God Bless. Yeay.. And to my Bff, and Hetty Koes Endang as my team member, thanks for your support and commitment. I am very proud of you all! Yeah! Okay.. I am tired but happy for that. Still have a lot of things need to be done and I must have an extra energy for it all. Now thats the thing, don't ever put your works as your last priority.. Em.. 1st priority maybe too much, 2nd or third priority will do.. Hehe..
Chippy, I am totally tired mentally and physically but I know you face the same thing like me right now but don't worry. I will always by your side and I will always support you. I just want you to take it easy, but knowing that it's important (assignment & study), so just put more extra works but remember 'tak elok mengeluh' hehehe... I love you Chippy...


With Love,


Gior D' Ray

I am tired

Honestly I am tired of everything, assignment, scolding, sindiran erm...never forget JAPANESE thing that makes me goes crazy... This is totally making me crazy! I am tired, exhausted, not enough sleep and I am going to face the same face which evaluate me cheaply as usual? I just can't take it any longer. Please... Let me be free and learn the way I want it to be... please...


With Love,

Gior D' Ray

Spending Time...

The time shown is 30 Minute after it is Reborn

Looks nice? Rm3.50 only. CP.. But I can cook better..hehe

This is the menu that I love the most.. But am still fasting (meat)

Erm.. Hola... ( a tag line by my BFF) It's Monday and surprisingly a.k.a sadly it's only week 12 where it means that I still have three more weeks to spend with someone that I dislike because of his poor attitude and so pathetic a.k.a does not have any feelings of humanity (is it too much?).. Okay.. I know that I should not say this because I must and should respect those who teach me something in order to get my knowledge blessed. But, it is just an expression of mine which I made sincerely. That's better right? Rather that I put a fake face and pretend that I am okay while I am not? I think I am right... However, it should not be an excuse for not to try my very best because as long as you try your best, you will get what you want! Remember those words? Sure you do... I know that myself has think of 'PLAN B' but I must try to work harder and put in all of my effort because It's never too late for everything.. It's Gior D' Ray right? You deserve what you work for... Remember that.. 


Okay.. Enough with that. I just want to say CONGRATULATION to my beloved watch that his reborn.. Happy birthday to you... 27-March-2011 (Sunday)- Captured at CentrePoint Sabah.. Oh yeah. talking about yesterday, at first we did not plan to go out anywhere but at last we went out at about 1.00 p.m. and we went to have our lunch at CP and erm.. Kinda sad that I still didn't found my new bag... Pity my MSM bag.. Rusak sudah... Anyway, Chippy I love you so much. I need your support for me right now (always) especially for the subject that really killing me.. Love you Chippy.. Muah..muah... Oh ya, God Bless you for your study yeah.. I know you are a Brilliant, Smart and Intelligent person... Always Lovely! Muah!


With Love,


Gior D' Ray

Earth Hour

Heyloo! I am here sitting with my best friend after joining the programme of Earth Hour and it makes me thinks of How Old this earth are and How BIG the difference we can make with just a simple action Be RESPONSIBLE! It is useless if we make all this kind of campaign and voice out if HUMANITIES themselves do NOTHING! So... PLEASE LOVE THE MOTHER EARTH!
By the way.. My comment for yesterday? NO COMMENT for THE INCIDENT but I love the moment where me and my BFF walking from the mall back to campus for class. Its fine and I just cant believe that the suggestion of walking back is coming out from my Best Friend's mouth (coz it's hard to see Him FINE TO WALK ^.^

With Love,

Gior D' Ray

I want we to trust each other

All I want we to do is.. Trust each other...

Trust is like roses, if we don't know how to handle it with care.. the thorn will make us bleed...

With Love,

Gior D' Ray

I am mentally exhausted

The Scent

The texture

This is the day where I started to feel tired, tension, over emotional, and easily break up in my own hope. When this happen, it is the real and the very suitable time where I need something which make me calm and do nothing, even thinking. What would it be? I don't want to answer it in a Classy way but I want to give an answer as a village boy who loves the feeling of nature surrounded by the fresh rhythm from the wind and the shore, isolated for a while, away from the crowd and far from connection which connected by any technology. I am not sure whether or not people will understand what I want and what I need but, one thing for sure, I want to enjoy and relax in the situation that I've described with someone that I love the most (for sure it's Chippy) and I want not only me having the therapy but also Chippy... 
Okay.. As usual.. Today is another hard day for me and my BFF... It's Wednesday... Hopefully, this only happen for the WEDNESDAY during this semester.. With GOD will, I wish no more this feeling for even a day, even a moment in the coming semester and the coming life of me, my BFF and my lovely Chippy... Amen...


With Love,


Gior D' Ray

It's about me & you

See? LOVE even exist in a friendship...

Have you guys wonder how to make the love that you holds remains forever?
have you guys wonder how to prevent the argument from happening while you and Him/Her are together?
I also wonder.... How it is?
I am not sure about what I am going to say to answer the question of mine which has always appears in my mind and I am not sure the doubt which I have is a truth or is it just a feeling of mine which is totally wrong?
Who knows what I try to do to answer the question above is the right answer? And who knows it is totally wrong?
I don't know... What I know is just that I really love Chippy and I don't want this love to ends in any sort of way.. Even if I died, i wish and I'll ask from the creator to be born again, only to be with Chippy...
I want us to be the angel's of love who spread the love in the world and who care for the love which all the angel's has.. I want to love and I want to be love.. by my God, Family, and of course Chippy..
I love you Chippy...


With Love,


Gior D' Ray

Previously

This is actually a post for the previous day, the day that had passed and the day where I have no time to do this.. The day so many things occurring...

I can't sleep,
everything i ever knew,
Is a lie,
without you,

I can't breathe,
when my heart is broke in two,
There's no beat,
without you,

You're not gone,
but you're not here,
At least that's the way it seems tonight,
If we could try to end these wars,
I know that we can make it right,
cause baby,

I don't wanna fight no more,
I forgot what we were fighting for,
and this lonelyness that's in my heart,
won't let me be apart from you,

I don't wanna have to try,
Girl, to live without you in my life,
So, i'm hoping we can start tonight,
cause i don't wanna fight,
no more,

How can I leave,
when everything that I adore,
and everything I'm living for,
Girl, it's in you,

I can't dream,
sleepless nights have got me bad,
The only dream i ever had,
is being with you,

I know that we can make it right,
It's gonna take a little time,
Lets not leave ourselves with no way out,
lets not cross that line,(that line)

I don't wanna fight no more...

It's all a lie,
Without you,
without you......

With Love,

Gior D' Ray

I am happy

Thanks a lot that at last I managed to download a virtual piano in my lappy! MUAH!

I love it

With Love,

Gior D' Ray

I am who I am

I am who I am

I am who I am

I am who I am

I just don't get it why do people love to see and evaluate other's with their own point of view? Why do they have to judge others (in a way that they themselves don't like to be judged)? Excuse me! You don't have the right to treat me that way! I am who I am. It's up to you whether you like it or not but as long as I am happy with what and who I am, that is enough and you don't have to spoil and even destroy my life! You don't have the right to do so! Don't you get it!? STUPID! Some people just don't get it. Nama jer budak U tapi perangai mengalahkan orang yang jadi SAMPAH MASYARAKAT! Usah berselindung di sebalik topeng da n tadahan tanganmu itu. Itu semua tidak menggambarkan apa-apa jika hatimu bak kuman HIV! Membunuh dalam diam tapi memberi kenikmatan palsu kepada semua orang! Last word for you.... SHIT!


I am who I am.. Thanks Chippy that you accept me the way I am.. And thank to see as I am who I am...
Sorry for the harsh words for the SHIT people.. Again.. I am who I am...


Never forget... With Love,
                      
                        Gior D' Ray

Sharing is Loving

Sharing is LOVING

Hola (a greeting made by my BFF)... People often said that sharing is caring but for me sharing is loving because when we care on others, it means that we love them, don't you realise it? I am so in love with my friends and of course my BFF because they always be the best for me and I know that they will always be. I am tired, stress, unhappy, shock and ever floody thing that comes in me, they will always be there for me (Chippy is the best) and that makes me love them more as they love me too (I love you Chippy)..
Chippy, this is a special words for you... Don't be stress of your work, be happy and be lovely.. You know I am always here whenever you need me (even when you doesn't feel so, I am still here fo you).. Chippy, work hard for your final (pray for my final as well) don't forget to pray, but please take a very good care of your health. I love you, really I do... MuAH!

With Love,

Gior D' Ray

Rindunya

Lemang made by mum, I miss it so much

This is the nice 'sweet' meat made by my dad... miss it too

By the time that I posted this post in my blog, I am actually in my mode of doing something (my BFF know-it's a religious thing) and that makes me miss something that I really love but I did not do for a long time. I miss eating all the dish cooked by my family (home made) and perhaps not the home made food alone but also the one sold at my favourite shop Ung Tong, Gelanggang kenyalang, Soon Kit, Famous Bakery and so much more! Fuh! It's okay, I still cannot eat meat but I will when this thing complete. Yeah. Amen...
I am taking this chance to say thanks to my parents and my family, my brothers and sisters that they have being the best for me, I miss you all. 
For Chippy, I always love you and I know you can feel me in your heart beat because your heart beat is a rhythm thats ensure that I am still living. I love you. Oh ya, cook for me ya? I want you to suap-suap me... I want milk with nestum ( my fav), horlicks (if possible), bread, yeah!
I love you! God I love you, please guide my way and protect everyone that I love, and I also forgive those who made wrong upon me, I miss you God... Amen...


With Love,


Gior D' Ray

Love your mother

Me with my S-size shirt

The shirt

I love this

Now you know what angels eat

My Kitchen RM4? 

Before (naked)

After (wrapped)

I am in the flu mode and lovely love with my BFF and my best friend. Yeah! Whoa. I miss laksa Sarawak a lot. Now, let us go to the topic content for today. Do you love your mother? If you ask me, I will immediately say yes! I really love my mum and I really appreciate her. Yesterday I actually went to a shopping mall to have my mind free after having a 'roller coaster' mid-term. Fuh! A real Fuh! I love that I have the chance to enjoy my big apple donut (even thought it's just a piece of it) and I am so happy that I bought a nice shirt and the best part is, it is my first shirt with S-Size...So hungry now, can't wait to break my fast later at five. 
For Chippy, I really miss you and I can't wait to see you again because I want to show you my outfit with the S-Size shirt (maybe with jeans) and I hope that you like it. Chippy, Chippy, Chippy.. I really love you, pray for my health okay? Pray for me so that I can face all the worries of mine and overcome all the problem's of mine in the name of the Lord, Amen.
I love you Chippy.


With Love,


Gior D' Ray

Declare your love before it's too late

Hello to my beloved Chippy, my BFF, and all who now me (whoever read this post). I just want to remind all of us to declare our love before it's too late. Actually, the title for my post today is actually taken from a tagline of my favorite movie 'Love Is Cinta'. It is a nice story because it really shows that a real love should be declared before it's too late. For those who are in love, who are searching for love, and even who live with love, please make sure that you declare your love before it's too late. 
How? It is so easy (even thought some hardly do it). Just go near the people (someone) that you love, close their eyes from their back, get your lips closer to their ears and say this precious words 'I Love You'. After that, grab their hand and hug them, and let they warm in your hug because they will know that your words is so real and that you mean it. But don't think that's enough because you must activate your 'love account' for them from time to time and make sure you always update them.
If you managed to do this, please remember that you have a promise to keep which is to love them like greatest time that you have ever love them and make sure you get the love that you wish (just as the love that you gave)... Not to be demanding but we deserve what we pay. Everybody have the right to love and be love. SO, if people pay us with love, then let they have love itself as the change.
And again declare your love before it's too late. Please do it because who know they will go forever (since they waited for so long until their time has no more left), and please appreciate because if we see things that we have as an ordinary thing (as other thing that we had ever have), someday it will gone without you realize it, or maybe you do realize it but by that time, it's all too late. And again, declare your love before it's too late.

My bracelet that I used to love so much because
 it is a symbol of friendship for me and my 3 friends

But now it's gone because of someone crazy who lost it..
but nothing left I can do because once it's gone, forever it go...

With Love,


Gior D' Ray

I Love My BEST FRIEND FOREVER

we are cute right?

This morning while I was searching for Emily The Strange Picture, I found something interesting and CUTE! so, I downloaded it and put some of my magic edit. Okay, it reminds me about my Very Special Friends here.. I really love him (and of course all of the other friend-but more love la to this BFF.. Jangan Marah Nina Yong..) Cute figura right? I really like it, if only they sell some of these items in town, I am going to get one for us. Yeah! Oh yeah.. Talking about 'oh yeah', I would like to congratulate me, myself and I because I manage to present my speech in Japanese (evaluation) without referring to any text (that's the most scary part). Even thought I actually 'burnt' something in my speech (mareeshia saba into saba mareeshia and forgot to tell my age) but I am proud of myself (I should) because I go for it even thought I know that I am shaking till death. It's okay. (okay?). The moral lesson is prepare yourself for everything and please STUDY more and HARDER! I will. I MUST!
To my beloved BFF, I really appreciate your presence in my life and I don't want this good feeling ends (don't care with chaos or love because I just don't want it to end) just let it live continuously with Vanilla, Peppermint, Chocolate and Honeydew Frappe! Yeah!
And to my beloved Chippy, you are the best person that I ever live with even thought sometimes wind and tides blew away our roof of love but we always know where to find a better roof and fix it before the rain comes.
I love you CHIPPY!


With Love,


Gior D' Ray

True love Isn't as it is?

The Poster

Actually I does not have any idea on how should I talk today (maybe I have). So, this title 'True love Isn't as it is' is actually taken from a tag line of a play by SPS and actually the real plan is to go and watch it but then since we have 'things' to do then we just stay at the library then. I don't know what the play is all about and hopefully there will be next time for us, me and my BFF to watch it. For me, love is the way how it should be... I love those kind of play, just like the play of 'Balagung Sundayang'. It is a love story and for me a story like that should be watched by those who are in love, want to be in love, and perhaps left in love? 

What ever it is, we should appreciate what we have right now because some day it maybe gone and by that time even if we put out the blood tears, it is useless. So, please appreciate your love. Love is all about give and take, give whatever you can to protect you love and take whatever you please before it's too late, and please say "I LOVE YOU" will you? 
For Chippy, I never forget to say your name in my prayer (maybe I did but not purposely did) and I even do it before I sleep (in my heart and my lips) because I love you and I really mean it.


With Love,


Gior D' Ray

Thank You Very Much

I Love This Gift

Friends, there is a day where we think that people never appreciate us but there is time where they actually do but they never show it like how we do. A cheesy milky moist scene right? Yeah, it is. As nice as my favourite Vanilla & Peppermint Frappe.
Oh yeah. I want to say A BIG THANK YOU to someone that has gave me a gift. It's a yesterday's gift and I love it so much and I really appreciate it. Thanks again! It is a nice cute doll that I called Mint ( Hopefully I remember that name- I got S.M.S bha).
Okay, no that the class seems to be filled with bunch of students, I'll just end it here, and last but not least.. I love you Chippy, no matter what comes in our relationship, I want us to stick together and fight for our love.
Muah!Muah!Muah!


With Love,


Gior D' Ray

Lovely as You

One Of My Stuff That I love the most

Just finish dinner and now sitting here with my BFF, onlining the favourite blog of us and maybe off to room in few moments later. Whatsup today? Its fine and yeah, congratulation to my BFF for his cute gift some ashiteru corner! I am trying to get something of mine that should have finished few years ago but still not complete yet. How is it? What is it? Only my BFF know because I am working on it just now, while he's watching the movies. I want to make it a surprise to everyone, especially my friends and my family, and of course Chippy (even that Chippy knew already). Tomorrow going to church and I am very happy that my great BFF will accompany me, I am glad, truly.
Kinda sleepy and tired now, so don't wanna talk much, just wanna wish that I will do my very best for the Japanese Presentation, writing my diary more often and get "my work done"! Amen.


With Love,


Gior D' Ray

I am a new born baby

Sincere From My heart

Its a great feeling when we 'reborn' in a different way. it don't have to be very nice but as long as it always move on just right, that's good enough. I know that I may act too harsh or too childish but that is for the sake of us and perhaps everyone. I felt guilty for what I've committed but at the same time I am glad that it has made a change in our relationship. To be honest, I was shock and disappointed of myself when I saw your tears and that precious tears is wasted because of the action of mine. But, honestly and sincerely I never wanted to do that in any mean of making your life harder but it is just that, I really want to show you what and how I feel when you did that to me. But, its over. Enough about that. Forget it, that it may make us bleed but keep it, that it may help us in keeping this great love.
Chippy, there's nothing in this world that can change my love for you and there's nobody that can take your place in my life. I love you, I really do.

a poem for you :

seldom I ask

am I good enough for you?

seldom I ask

do you love me as I love you?

but...

often I said

I love you

often I said

I wont leave

and often I said

I will always be with you and always Loving you

because everything I do

I do it for you

with love,

Gior D' ray

What should I do?

I just dont get it. I dont know what you want.

In this world, I don't have anything else to ask for but a real love from someone that I really love. "Awak, kan saya dah beritahu awak bahawa awak menduduki tempat ketiga dalam orang yang paling saya sayang". 
1. God
2. Family
3. Awak
 It means that I really love you. I always try to be the best for you, but until now I just don't know what else should I do? How should I be? Coz it seems that I am not good enough for you. I am nothing. I am nobody.
Right now, I am sitting here, doing nothing because I forgot who I used to be. And who am I in you dearly... WIll I safe today? If yes, I hope you'll love me because I know that maybe next time I wont be safe, and by that time I am not sure what will you say when you hear the news that I am here (in this world) no more...
But, don't worry. I've told you. I will love you forever and that wont change because once that I said that I love you, forever will I do because I never have someone like you.


I love you.


With Love,


Gior D' Ray 

Poem

I managed to get myself online via the Wifi. but, still not so sure whether this post will be posted or not (because of the bad connection). I will just make this post as a simple post because of some reason and I realize that sometime, I have to lessen the words of me. but, for that I will do something which I didn't do for a long time, which is expressing something in a poem.. So, here it is...

 Last night,

before I sleep..

my tears flowing down my cheek

and without I realize it,

I slept along that weep,

the tears is a lonely tears,

a tears of love which unheard

which is rethought

that, is this only my feeling of jealousness or is this for real?

That's yesterday!

But today,

thanks to you Chippy,

because you make me cry and you make me smile

that cry hurts me

but sometimes, it's worth it,

because in the end I'll know

that you Love Me...

With Love,

Gior D' Ray