I Love My BEST FRIEND FOREVER

we are cute right?

This morning while I was searching for Emily The Strange Picture, I found something interesting and CUTE! so, I downloaded it and put some of my magic edit. Okay, it reminds me about my Very Special Friends here.. I really love him (and of course all of the other friend-but more love la to this BFF.. Jangan Marah Nina Yong..) Cute figura right? I really like it, if only they sell some of these items in town, I am going to get one for us. Yeah! Oh yeah.. Talking about 'oh yeah', I would like to congratulate me, myself and I because I manage to present my speech in Japanese (evaluation) without referring to any text (that's the most scary part). Even thought I actually 'burnt' something in my speech (mareeshia saba into saba mareeshia and forgot to tell my age) but I am proud of myself (I should) because I go for it even thought I know that I am shaking till death. It's okay. (okay?). The moral lesson is prepare yourself for everything and please STUDY more and HARDER! I will. I MUST!
To my beloved BFF, I really appreciate your presence in my life and I don't want this good feeling ends (don't care with chaos or love because I just don't want it to end) just let it live continuously with Vanilla, Peppermint, Chocolate and Honeydew Frappe! Yeah!
And to my beloved Chippy, you are the best person that I ever live with even thought sometimes wind and tides blew away our roof of love but we always know where to find a better roof and fix it before the rain comes.
I love you CHIPPY!


With Love,


Gior D' Ray

True love Isn't as it is?

The Poster

Actually I does not have any idea on how should I talk today (maybe I have). So, this title 'True love Isn't as it is' is actually taken from a tag line of a play by SPS and actually the real plan is to go and watch it but then since we have 'things' to do then we just stay at the library then. I don't know what the play is all about and hopefully there will be next time for us, me and my BFF to watch it. For me, love is the way how it should be... I love those kind of play, just like the play of 'Balagung Sundayang'. It is a love story and for me a story like that should be watched by those who are in love, want to be in love, and perhaps left in love? 

What ever it is, we should appreciate what we have right now because some day it maybe gone and by that time even if we put out the blood tears, it is useless. So, please appreciate your love. Love is all about give and take, give whatever you can to protect you love and take whatever you please before it's too late, and please say "I LOVE YOU" will you? 
For Chippy, I never forget to say your name in my prayer (maybe I did but not purposely did) and I even do it before I sleep (in my heart and my lips) because I love you and I really mean it.


With Love,


Gior D' Ray

Thank You Very Much

I Love This Gift

Friends, there is a day where we think that people never appreciate us but there is time where they actually do but they never show it like how we do. A cheesy milky moist scene right? Yeah, it is. As nice as my favourite Vanilla & Peppermint Frappe.
Oh yeah. I want to say A BIG THANK YOU to someone that has gave me a gift. It's a yesterday's gift and I love it so much and I really appreciate it. Thanks again! It is a nice cute doll that I called Mint ( Hopefully I remember that name- I got S.M.S bha).
Okay, no that the class seems to be filled with bunch of students, I'll just end it here, and last but not least.. I love you Chippy, no matter what comes in our relationship, I want us to stick together and fight for our love.
Muah!Muah!Muah!


With Love,


Gior D' Ray

Lovely as You

One Of My Stuff That I love the most

Just finish dinner and now sitting here with my BFF, onlining the favourite blog of us and maybe off to room in few moments later. Whatsup today? Its fine and yeah, congratulation to my BFF for his cute gift some ashiteru corner! I am trying to get something of mine that should have finished few years ago but still not complete yet. How is it? What is it? Only my BFF know because I am working on it just now, while he's watching the movies. I want to make it a surprise to everyone, especially my friends and my family, and of course Chippy (even that Chippy knew already). Tomorrow going to church and I am very happy that my great BFF will accompany me, I am glad, truly.
Kinda sleepy and tired now, so don't wanna talk much, just wanna wish that I will do my very best for the Japanese Presentation, writing my diary more often and get "my work done"! Amen.


With Love,


Gior D' Ray

I am a new born baby

Sincere From My heart

Its a great feeling when we 'reborn' in a different way. it don't have to be very nice but as long as it always move on just right, that's good enough. I know that I may act too harsh or too childish but that is for the sake of us and perhaps everyone. I felt guilty for what I've committed but at the same time I am glad that it has made a change in our relationship. To be honest, I was shock and disappointed of myself when I saw your tears and that precious tears is wasted because of the action of mine. But, honestly and sincerely I never wanted to do that in any mean of making your life harder but it is just that, I really want to show you what and how I feel when you did that to me. But, its over. Enough about that. Forget it, that it may make us bleed but keep it, that it may help us in keeping this great love.
Chippy, there's nothing in this world that can change my love for you and there's nobody that can take your place in my life. I love you, I really do.

a poem for you :

seldom I ask

am I good enough for you?

seldom I ask

do you love me as I love you?

but...

often I said

I love you

often I said

I wont leave

and often I said

I will always be with you and always Loving you

because everything I do

I do it for you

with love,

Gior D' ray

What should I do?

I just dont get it. I dont know what you want.

In this world, I don't have anything else to ask for but a real love from someone that I really love. "Awak, kan saya dah beritahu awak bahawa awak menduduki tempat ketiga dalam orang yang paling saya sayang". 
1. God
2. Family
3. Awak
 It means that I really love you. I always try to be the best for you, but until now I just don't know what else should I do? How should I be? Coz it seems that I am not good enough for you. I am nothing. I am nobody.
Right now, I am sitting here, doing nothing because I forgot who I used to be. And who am I in you dearly... WIll I safe today? If yes, I hope you'll love me because I know that maybe next time I wont be safe, and by that time I am not sure what will you say when you hear the news that I am here (in this world) no more...
But, don't worry. I've told you. I will love you forever and that wont change because once that I said that I love you, forever will I do because I never have someone like you.


I love you.


With Love,


Gior D' Ray 

Poem

I managed to get myself online via the Wifi. but, still not so sure whether this post will be posted or not (because of the bad connection). I will just make this post as a simple post because of some reason and I realize that sometime, I have to lessen the words of me. but, for that I will do something which I didn't do for a long time, which is expressing something in a poem.. So, here it is...

 Last night,

before I sleep..

my tears flowing down my cheek

and without I realize it,

I slept along that weep,

the tears is a lonely tears,

a tears of love which unheard

which is rethought

that, is this only my feeling of jealousness or is this for real?

That's yesterday!

But today,

thanks to you Chippy,

because you make me cry and you make me smile

that cry hurts me

but sometimes, it's worth it,

because in the end I'll know

that you Love Me...

With Love,

Gior D' Ray