WhenI look at you

Flu during class

Just now, I posted something in my Fb and the question is about which one of these lives stronger in me right now? (Class? Messy mind? Jealousy? Flu ? which one I felt stronger in me right now?) I am now sure which one bother me more. But deep inside of me, I can hear my heart tells me that actually I am controlled by a feeling that I should not have but it is instilled deep in me already even though I often telling myself not to keep it inside of me. I should change the way  think about everything because I know my way of thinking right now brings more bad to me than good.

I am not sure why I want to share this with my blog (even though it's not alive but I do feel that it's alive because it helps me a lot to express what I feel in my real life (however I will never put my diary behind).

My Chippy asked me, why when every time that I turn on the music, I will play Miley's song first?

I just said I don't know (even though it means something).

Here's the lyric of the song that I said just now. Take a look at it and you will understand what I am trying to tell you (hopefully you read it).

Everybody needs inspiration      
Everybody needs a soul
A beautiful melody
when the nights so long


cause there is no guarantee
that this life is easy


yea when my world is falling apart
when there's no light to break up the dark
that's when I, I...
I look at you.


when the waves are flooding the shore
and I can't find my way home anymore
that's when I, I...
I look at you.

when I look at you, I see forgiveness
I see the truth
you love me for who I am
like the starts hold the moon
right there where they belong
and I'm know I am not alone


you appear just like a dream to me
just like kaleidoscope colors
that cover me, all I need 
every breath that I breathe don't you know
you're beautiful...

With love,

Gior D' Ray